last of the last

This is my last chance at love.

There is no more what-ifs in our relationship. We will make it work, after a year, 10 years later, 50 years later we will still make it work and keep going. Before we die, I'll tell you 'see, I told you we can work it out'

Not going to lie, I've been through so many relationships and went through the ups and downs in each to the point that I told my parents this is my last relationship and I won't settle for anyone ever again if it fails this time too. Many times I've read through my older posts, I do realize at the numerous 'last chances' I give for love, and yet again life happens - things change, and we all end up being strangers at the very end. Each time I want to settle down with a person, circumstances change and we all end up giving up instead because it's always easier. It's a long and tiring process, to know a person, understand them, trusting they won't turn their backs on you, and etc so no more of such after this relationship. I'm putting it here so the world can pick on me if I'm going back on my words, haha kidding.

It's been only 3 months and I'm enjoying every single bit of the relationship not going to lie *touched my heart* Yes yes yes, it may be just the honeymoon phase but I do also know that it takes both person's effort are going to make things work eventually. After all, we chose the person to be with and it's our choice to love them and stay in love. Both of us had bad experiences with our exes previously so I do appreciate the fact he choose to accept me wholeheartedly and be sensitive to certain things. I don't want to make this a cheesy post but I am just so very blessed and lucky to have found someone like him.

Every single day he wouldn't fail to wake up early to send me to and fro from work with a bottle of hot honey lemon because he wants the best for me, occasionally joins my family for dinner... Well, there was even this week my mom invited him over for dinner almost everyday - which is something super rare and has never happened with my other exes. He always offer to pick me up from wherever I am after a late night's out and even offer to send my friends home; helps me do all the admin stuff I hate like signing up a Starbucks card just so I could use it; gets a hot compress because I told him once I had really bad cramps; buys his own airplane ticket just so he could accompany me for my work trip to KL because I had to go alone; drive out to find me during wee hours just to give me a hug because I was feeling emotionally down; always compliments and assures me randomly for an extra boost to survive throughout the day... there are simply too many things he has done for me even though it's nothing fancy or extraordinary but it's the most heartwarming and comforting feeling that anyone can ever wish for in a relationship.

Lastly, thank you for always wanting to take care of me and ensuring I have the best of the best. Thank you for being an adorable and incredible soul - you've brought so much fun and laughter to my life ever since and I almost forgot the feeling of how shitty it felt from other relationships. You always feel so insecure and small about yourself but please know you are everything to me and we should be each other's cheerleader to get through everything in life. The next few years are going to be our golden moment, we should put aside negativity and look forward to better things planned ahead for us. I'm so excited to do life with you babe. Cheers to the next 50 years together, hahaha.